Lately i've been having a personal battle with myself, i 've been struggling to figure out what I wanna do with my life and how I want to be remembered. So today my best friend. whom i've know since we were both 11, has really been struggling with her life. She's married and recently had a beautiful baby girl, her husband hasn't been the ideal husband but lets face it they never are, but he's really been an awful husband and father, i'm not talking about forgetting to put the toilet seat down or ignoring them while he watches a game, he never helps with the baby and spends their money on alcohol and things that just don't benefit his family therefore the rent is late, the car payment is late, the bills aren't paid. I have prayed for her everyday and asked God to just give her guidance and protect her in her decisions and help her make good ones, today she must've reached her breaking point and reached out for help and asked me what to do, so i prayed for her and told her to pray, i told her to breathe and do what is best for her daughter that she shouldn't feel bad b/c she's done her job and then some. about an hour after i sent her the text that i had prayed and continued praying for her she replied with "idk why but i feel as if a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders!" and i thought to myself wow God is great, he is always in control and has her best interest at heart.

this is when i realized that i think my calling in life is to be a helper and a giver, i had previously thought that meant i needed to be a nurse or a doctor but today i really feel as though God is using me to help others and idk if this means i need to join the ministry or perhaps become a counselor, either way i wanna use my gift of empathy and caring for good and i want to help as many people as i can. i feel so fulfilled while helping others and using God as my main example, i realize that am not the perfect christian but i believe i am perfect in my imperfections and everyone is flawed.

that's all for now i will end my blog on an amazing personal high!

later fools.

well lets see...many things have changed since my last post.

• i've finished my nursing program and am now employed at an actual doctor's office.
• my mother is driving me crazy, and not just normal mother-daughter tension, actual like jealousy...overbearing type tension.
• i've started exercising b/c it helps the bod. lol.
• my hair has gotten uber long and i'm thinkin i need to cut it.
• i'm trying to find my center again...i feel as tho i'm slipping in my ways, it's like i'm losing my drive. NOT COOL.

MOVING ON!

My favorite season is upon us...i love the fall. HALLOWEEN, THANKSGIVING. Amazing weather and the leaves omgsh it's making me excited just typing those words!

Most of my friends are doing really well and the one's that aren't realize that life gets better if u just try. Seriously people just try and don't give up.

I'm getting tired so this is to be continued....